Facing a season or seasons of trying and testing. What is truly in this vessel. A great prophetess once said that you are presented with sin to see if righteousness is truly in you. You are presented with WRONG to see if RIGHT is truly within you.
That speaks to my current season. All the wrong that I have been presented how much of it have I resisted. Paul says
"And you were dead in your trespasses and sins,
in which you formerly walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, of the spirit that is now working in the sons of disobedience." Here is the challenge. My mind has been conditioned by society to understand that I am only human which is a cop out. The more I focus on my humanity I operate in my human capacity and miss God. According to Paul, I am dead to a life of humanity or flesh. If I only believe that what I do is expected because of my humanity then I am already dead to sin but I was revived or awakened from that state of mind. So whats the problem?
Paul says that this spirit of the Prince of the power of the air in in the sons of disobedience. So this wretched mindset that is presented by society is of Satan. If I accept that it is ok to sin and trespass against God then I have agreed with the enemy and have accepted his spirit. But I have been instructed that those who are sons of God do not sin. It is not in their nature but in the nature of the children of Satan, the fahter of lies. SO could it be that I struggle because I am believing the lies of Satan and not the truths of God. Here is the divide, the warring and tugging inside of me.
The truth is the truth and nothing else. It does not fail. So why do I? If I am an heir to righteousness and throne of God. If I have been adopted into a kingdom of light why do I fail at living a life full of purpose and godliness. WE have been given everything that pertains to life and all godliness. Why, o why do I fail? Is Christ truly alive in me? Who am I?
O wretched man that I am who will deliver from this body of death? My mind is running. I am never settled because I want my father. I need my savior. I want to bask and smell his presence. I want to be so consumed that this life is no more and I live as spirit in human flesh and not as human trying to embrace the spirit.
"What can watch away my sin...Nothing but the blood of Jesus! What can make me whole again...Nothing but ther blood of Jesus!" Yes, the blood. O precious is the flow that makes me white as snow. No other fount' I know...
My God cleanse me from the inside out. Whatever lot you have given me it is well with my soul. For my soul is anchored in the Lord. The cries of the early saints. God I need a refining. Make me face holiness. I want to be right in your eyes.
It is Christ who saved and redeemed me from the walk of darkness into the light. I was ignorant but now found, by grace.
"No other fount' I know, nothing BUT the blood of Jesus!" His spirit leads me to all truths which is the power of his might that keeps me and empowers me to OBEY. For I am a son of the ALmighty God.
What I am saying to encourage myself to press...I....am....a....SON! Yet I hold on.
